It's Personal

I can't help but feel...

… that I’ve lost you.

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yet another casualty to the realms of the (rat) race.

It’s really sad, that I come to know this just as I’ve let you in.

As much as you deny it, I know you can’t handle us both (yes, me of little faith)..

When will it be my turn? When will people stop choosing everything else over me?

Will I ever feel a little less disappointed?

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I’m stil clutching on to that half full glass - telling myself to believe it’s half full..

when deep down I know, it’s just an illusion.

Why do you watch movies?

I’m doing my part as an obliging Malaysian citizen and browsing through the (now, very open) pirated DVD shops.

I’ve selected Kinsey and Vanity Fair (still slightly surprised they have such old films in store).

And in my head is LingLing, who’s always watching this or that. Sebbie’s a different animal - with different rationale for his film obsession. Sis makes cinema-visiting a (nearly) weekly affair. DT watched tv series of sorts every other day.

So what is it that we love so much?

Is it just to kill time? Watch someone else ridicule themselves in the world for a change? Or perhaps an attempt to live in someone else’s fantasy?

Love, Chance and Choice

justbesplendid:

When we meet the right person to love when we’re at the right place at the right time, that’s chance. When you meet someone you’re attracted to, that’s not a choice. That’s chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there’s a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That’s also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?That’s when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that’s not a chance. That’s choice. When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that’s choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that’s choice.Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice.A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there’s a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: “Fate brings you together, but it’s still up to you to make it happen.”I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it’s still up to you to make the choice if you’re going to do something about it or not.We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mates is still a choice we have to make.
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love… BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly…

Love itself is a choice.

I'm tired...

of being “not-the-priority” to everyone, including myself.