It's Personal

Everyone thinks it - this year flew past.

Every year seems to fly past. Doesn’t it make you wonder if the earth is just spinning faster now? Has anyone checked recently?

I’ve finally paid my parking fine, visited the dentist, cleaned half my room (it’s a MAJOR milestone I tell you), went on a holiday, not checked work emails for 2 weeks (other than spam), not cared about work for 3 weeks (and that is the truth) and waiting to wash my final load of laundry before the new year…

There’s about 12 hours to the new year.. I’m ready.

Well, I haven’t been to the optician. I’ve yet to finish cleaning up my room. I’m dreading the first Monday of the year..

But I guess this is as ready as I will get.

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Reflection:

It’s been an intense year. A physically, mentally and emotionally challenging year.

I’d like to think I learnt all the lessons I was meant to learn. But I’m really not sure I have. The one apparent lesson God (or whichever higher power is trying to get across) is not to be so careless with my stuff or naively trusting with society..

Evident from my loss of camera in Quarter 1 and loss of handbag in Quarter 4

I’d like to think I’ve learnt this lesson

I think this year, I lost myself a little bit. I lost a bit of that strict objectivity I used to pride myself with. All’s just a tad fuzzy this year - too much Change Management I reckon.

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Anticipation:

As with every birthday, I walk into every new year (typically) with indifference.

This year’s different - there’s a little dread and fear peering out. Dreading what I can foresee and fearing what I can’t.

Geez… what happened to all those positive crystals

But a gf shed some light. I’ve a different milestone to work towards this year. I should be looking into postgraduate applications now.

A new year, a new challenge.

Am I ready for it?….

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Well, as ready as I’ll ever be.